As a person, are you sensitive to rejection? How do you deal with it?
It’s definitely tough, especially in the periods of time when you’re just waiting, worrying that you should have changed something in your application, and ultimately receiving no response at all.
However I’ve always been proud of the work I’ve produced, and even though I was under no illusion that it was at an industry standard yet, I knew it was valuable and constantly improving. Just getting to work on the next portfolio project was ultimately distracting enough to push through.
Did that decision to follow your own path put extra pressure on you? Do you tend to compare yourself to others?
Yeah, and as pernicious as comparisons to other artists are, I can’t deny that they help push me to work harder. The main positive that I took away from it was learning to restructure how I approached making my work.
Simply putting more and more hours into the same flawed techniques would get me nowhere, so I focused on extracting as much useful information from other artists’ work as possible. It was something along the lines of ‘Work smart, not hard’ — but I still did work hard.
Would you say you’re internally motivated or externally motivated as a person and artist?
I’d have to say both. Creating is amazing, be it painting, 3D, music, food or carving avocado seeds. I will always pursue those passions, but I would never have made a fraction of my current digital portfolio without external motivation. When I see inspiring work, I often get a strong urge to make something just like it but with an injection of my own ideas.